over the past two weeks. everything has gone down hill...
me and shane wernt doing too goood. he wanted a few days to decide weather to be with me
because hes fed upw ith my worrieing and paranoia about other girls n stuff.
we have kind of sorted things out... still abit iffy somtimes.
ALSO
chicken my beautiful little man died on sunday a few weeks ago...
he was the best cat ever. he meant so much to me, he made me smile so much because he was
like a human in a cats body. he had such a personality. :'(
he was so young tooo!! He rand into these backgardens of houses behind mine and ended up running out onto the main road :'(
The people said they found him under their car and had already died.
He must have been hit by a car and ran to try find safety somewhere.
I feel so sad :'( i miss him everyday... i just wish i could have somehow knew he was hurt and come rescued him.
I worrie that he was in pain and was just hopeing me or someone would just show up and Help him :'(
BUT no one ever come... no one was there to help him that time :(
I FEEL LIKE I LET HIM DOWN. JUST LEFT HIM TO DIE :(
he was like a bestfriend. i miss him so so much.
somtimes i just want to die, just to get rid of all this pain and hurt thats in my head.
just for permanent silence.
I JUST WANT HIM BACK :'( JUST WANT HIM TO COME RUNNING HOME ALL HAPPY AND MEAOWING :(
why do the best have to be taken away so sooon???
life is so unfair and im sick of it! so fucked off with being brought into a world thats so fucked up and unfair!
I HATE THIS i need to excape from my brain for a few moments.
