:(

havnt written on here in a while... dont know why actully.. soppose coz everyday seems to be the same,
whats the point in droaning on about the same stuff?

Im fed up. I wish i would have stuck it out at college.
im becoming a complete socluse... i dont see jambo anymore.
I hardly see charlei because shes out with others....
i hate this house and the people in it...
yet i have nowhere else to go, even to excape just for a few hours.
:'( i want to close my eyes and make all the swearing & shouting go away...
i would like to fade away...


I want to hack my wrists off.
just cut and cut and cut and cut until theres nothing left...
until i feel satisfied that ive been punished enough.
Punished for being Khloi.
fat, annoying, mean, ugly, stupid, forgetful, immature....

i lost 4-6lb. tomorow is a new day and the start of my new eating plan.
it has to be followed. im the one with CONTROL over what i eat...
Down to 7stone for next friday.
if im anything more....
god knows what i will need to do to be punished for it.